Monday, July 02, 2007

Evaluated (June 10, 2007)

Although I wrote this one several weeks ago, it's still extremely relevant to me and I don't know why. I had a meeting about my evaluations and those same feelings all came up again. Just what exactly is this voice trying to tell me? I'd like to know now, please...

I got my evaluations yesterday.

They were all good, as in the criticisms were constructive.

My teachers picked up on new things that I need to learn, which means they’ve either given up on my old bad habits or I’ve outgrown them.

My playwriting teacher had the longest, and most thought-provoking, evaluation.

I’m still processing, but so far I’ve already learned one thing.

I think I’m explaining.

Everyone else hears excuses.

I’m confused but I guess I’ll stop explaining things when they go wrong and just…

…accept the consequences.

Which for some reason I am reluctant to do.

Recalcitrant. Resistant. Rebellious.

I don’t understand but I think it’s true.

I don’t like it.

Rebel – renounce, or take up arms against, authority; revolt. L. re-again, bellum-war.
Recalcitrant – show resistance; refractory. L. re-back, calcitro-kick.
Refractory – unruly, obstinate. Unmanageable, perverse.
Reluctant – unwilling, disinclined. L. re-against, luctor-struggle.
Resistant – make opposition to, strive against. L. re-against, sisto-stand.

1 comment:

Hope said...

I'll be interested to hear when you process this further.