I hate change. I like having security - a steady job, a steady (if small) paycheque, a steady path layed out in front of me...to the grave...
If I am honest with myself I know that the steady path also bores me. The thought of spending my life that way fills me with a greater fear - that I will die unfulfilled because I chose to. Because I chose the easy, safe path.
I hate having to make choices where there is no right answer. Why can't God actually give me direction instead of free will and the ability to choose what I will do?
He drives me nuts.
I'm not sure I'd have it any other way. Difficult human that I am, I would rebel against any path set in front of me unless I set it there myself.
Back to square one, and somewhere, God is laughing at me. I know it.